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Sent by : puertoRICAN
Sent : 03 Sep 2010 at 9:20pm
:D You fuc*king amaze me baby, not a day go's by where i am not completely dumb-founded that i am with you. i always felt like i was just sitting on the side line watching you, asking myself "Why do i feel this way for her... whats so important?" I was just trying to confuse myself into not loving you, so i could stop hurting all the time. But with time, there was no denying, or letting go, your perfect in every way, what i have always looked for in a woman and in NE person. Some1 who completes me, makes me laugh, calls me out on my own bullsh1t, open-minded, fearless, compassionate, understanding, caring, trust-worth and BEAUTIFUL! Your just to amazing to even describe, i can not wait to hold you in my arms, kiss you and tell you how much i love you to your face. 8/16/11
We both have our own lil self-issues about "im not good enuff" i dont deserve you" blah blah blah, but thats not real, each person deserves somebody, some1 who they can completely trust with there life and are willing to spend every single day waking up, talking to, paying bills, enjoying life, going to bed, having a family ext.... And you are that person. No1 will ever fill the space you have taken from my heart, and its a god thing, i will give you my heart, its like collateral, telling you, this is real, it will work, i have complete trust in not only you, but in us, i love you baby!
I wont lie, it scares me to know that we are separated by the ocean and are so far apart, i mean, 90% of the time, people in our situation never can seem to work it out, its only right that i would be scared or worried. BUT, i am absolutely determined to make it work, so thats 50%, and it seems like you want it as bad as i do, so i know that we are both in this for real, and i will not stop untill the day i get off the plane, and be able to call that place my home, and you my future wife! It will be a long process, but looking ahead to the end, it will be more the worth it, i can grantee you that much mami.
***edited so he doesnt kill me for puttign this bit in****
I would give up so much to be with you, nothing means more to me then you. i am still nervous and i guess scared in a way, but i know that when the time comes, it will be be natural and the best day of my life! I mean, meeting the woman i already know i love.... Why am i scared?? lol, just normal i guess. Just like when you sit by the girl you have a crush on in the bus, you know you like her and she likes you, but your completely speechless...... except, i do not have a crush on you... i am completly in love with you... so diff story... :)
I care for you more then i could even describe, your my everything and if NEthing were to happen to you, more then 1 life would be lost. I feel connected to you, and that we both share a pulse. (I hope to god i did not just curse you to be doomed 2marow... D:< )
I love you Bev, if i could go back in time, i would have told you from the start how i felt, what you do to me, and the way you make me feel. your amazing and the most beautiful person i have ever had the pleasure of knowing. <3333
I love my lil princess, more then NEthing in the world.
