so this is what happens when you decide to actually help yourself.


you quit caffeine, you start eating the right things, you drink nothing but water and fruit juice. for a while it's hell, everything they said it should be- headaches, nausea, exhaustion - but after the crappiness comes the good bit, actually feeling alive in your own skin. 


i've not felt this good in so long. i don't just mean psychologically, but physically, i feel like i'm getting healthy, waking from a living nightmare or something. now i can finally be me.