tonight i decided not to breathe anymore, but willing myself to stop didn't make it so.
tonight i realised that things would never be the same again, but you've not figured that out yet.
tonight i saw a picture of myself and thought i looked pretty, but behind my eyes i was dead.
tonight i hurt you and felt too sad to make you feel better.
tonight i realised people are disposable, because i can turn a switch in my mind and they're dead to me.
tonight i realised you're my romeo, but i dont deserve to be your juliet.
tonight no matter how much i tried, i always failed.
tonight no matter how many times i said sorry, i knew you'd never forgive me.
tonight i felt so low that i wanted to get high.
tonight i felt so broken that i wanted to stamp on my pieces instead of fix them.
tonight i rot in my skin, a piece of me dies every day.
tonight i know i'm nothing, and theres nothing i can say.
tonight i realised i couldn't live through another day.
tonight my throat got so tight from crying i could barely breathe.
tonight i realised that being remembered doesnt matter, neither does being liked, all that matters is being dead.
tonight i realised i'm selfish enough to do it.
tonight i realised that i need a cure for me, not a cure for cancer.
tonight i waited for the dawn and the sun, but it never came, only clouds and rain.
tonight i found the only way to lose the feeling of sadness is to lose hope entirely.
tonight i didn't cut myself, not because i was strong, but because i didn't want to feel better.
tonight if i killed myself no-one would save me, but it didn't stop me from trying.
tonight i wished that love survives death.
iLy more than life <3
